life lately ~ september 2021

Hey, friends. It’s me, popping in for a quick little life update, even though I’m still not finished with my hiatus. I just wanted to write this up anyway.

September was pretty full of downs. It was definitely not productive, as much as I wanted it to be, and despite getting a week’s break from school, I am worn out. But let’s start from the beginning, shall we?

The biggest occurrences of September were the Holy Days. My family celebrates the Old Testament feasts, and the biggest ones happened to fall in September this year. At the beginning of the month, we celebrated Yom Kippur (Day of Atonement). This involves fasting from sundown to sundown (24 hours). It’s always really hard, since you’re not even supposed to drink any water. However, we’ve done it for years, and so I’m pretty used to it.

After fasting, we went out for dinner at my favorite pizza place. It’s probably not a great idea to load yourself up on carbs and sugar after fasting, but… *shrugs* We did, and suffered no ill effects.

The other Feast we celebrated this month was Sukkot (Feast of Tabernacles). This involves camping for an entire week, and we always take a week off of school, since you’re supposed to rest during the feasts. Unfortunately, I couldn’t finish the entire week of camping because it was just too exhausting and I was staying up for a good chunk of the night, so I had to go back in after five nights. But I’m glad I lasted for at least five nights.

The other big thing this month was that I finally, finally got a job! *cheers* I got hired on the spot at my job interview, and so far I’ve had one orientation class. My official training starts the week of October 5th, so it’s coming up rapidly. To be honest, it’s not the kind of job I pictured doing, mainly because it’s known as a stressful and fast-paced kind of job. (I’m going to be a barista at a well-known coffee chain. Think green sirens.)

There weren’t a lot of other highlights in September, but I will list the few that did happen.

We went to see Shang-Chi and the Legend of the Ten Rings a couple of days after it released, and I loved it! I’m very apprehensive towards all the new characters entering the MCU (especially Eternals, which, as of now, I will not be watching. (which is sad. It had so much potential, but alas.)), but I am glad to say the characters of Shang-Chi have made a delightful addition to the MCU, and I absolutely cannot wait to see more of them.

Then, of course, the Hawkeye trailer released. At first, I was disappointed, because it’s set during Christmas and my family doesn’t celebrate Christmas. However, it has Home Alone vibes, and I absolutely love Home Alone, even if it is a Christmas movie. So I’m really, really looking forward to watching Hawkeye, because I already know it’s going to be chaotic and I know I’m going to love it. (Or at least, I hope to love it.)

I attended both of this month’s American Heritage Girls meetings, which were a lot of fun! I’m excited to see what the next few months bring. Speaking of American Heritage Girls, I also received special permission to earn the Abigail Adams Level Award, which I am so excited for. I have a lot of brainstorming to do for my community outreach project requirement, but I’m confident that I can come up with something.

Lastly, my dad took me and my sister to the State Fair. I love the State Fair. I will say that this year wasn’t as great as other years, probably because I was so tired, it was hot, and I wore the wrong kind of shoes, but still, it was fun. We got to ride some of our favorite rides, have some fair lemonade (which I always love), and have fun in the petting zoo. (I got bitten by a pig. And attacked by two goats. And kicked by a sheep. It was delightful!) (That’s not sarcasm. I thought it was cute. Though somewhat painful.)

Now for the not so greats. My mental health hasn’t gotten worse, per se, but it definitely hasn’t gotten better and I’m less numb, which means I’m feeling more of the bad stuff. My job comes with some mental health benefits, so I might have the opportunity to start counseling in the next couple of months. However, due to some conversation with some people in my life, I am now extremely hesitant to do so. I guess we’ll see what happens. All that to say, I am tired, I’m not very fond of the body I’m in, and I’m fed up with anxiety taking control of my life.

Because of my mental state, this month has not been productive. I haven’t completed many of my goals, and I haven’t even made any baby steps toward progress. I’m trying to be gentle with myself, though. There’s always next month to start making those baby steps.

One unfortunate occurrence this month was that my glasses got broken. I’m currently wearing an old pair, but they’re definitely putting strain on my eyes and causing a lot of headaches. I can’t get in to the eye doctor to get new glasses until November, so I’m trying to find some sort of solution. I can’t imagine how I can survive a month with this old prescription… >.<

If I had to pick one word to describe the month of September, it would be “mediocre”. It hasn’t been awful, but it hasn’t been great, either.

A lot of the month has also been filled with longing. Around this time last year, I was having the time of my life playing Jo March in Little Women. I miss that a lot. I miss the cast, I miss rehearsals, and most of all, I miss stepping into character as Jo. I also miss my second home, the Czech Republic. With countries and airlines having so many covid restrictions, it is currently very unlikely I’ll ever be able to go there again, and that’s really hard. I can’t articulate just how much of a home the Czech Republic is to me. I visited the Czech Republic for the first time very shortly after I was born, my first word was in Czech, and most of my family lives there. I’m proud of my Czech heritage, and I’m just sad that there’s so much uncertainty as to whether I’ll ever get to go back.

September has also been a lonely month. I haven’t had a lot of social interaction, and despite the fact that I’m an introvert, I still need some kind of social life. I miss talking to my friends, both online and in real life. I guess life just gets busy for everyone.

Let’s take a look at how I did on my September goals (spoiler alert: I failed).

~ Earn two or three AHG badges

Not quite. I earned one, the Biblical Leadership badge. However, I started work on some other badges on my own, and I earned permission to work towards the Abigail Adams award, so I’m just going to go ahead and count this as a yes. (A somewhat cheating yes, but still a yes.)

~ Write more fanfic and/or poetry

Yes! I started work on a fanfic, and while I haven’t made a ton of progress, I have been working on it pretty consistently, at least a few sentences every day.

~ Do some extra math lessons to catch up

Big no. I didn’t even remember that I had this goal… heh.

~ Start a regular exercise regime

Another big no. I did make an attempt at the beginning of the month, but as I got more and more tired, I just haven’t had the energy to get myself moving. I’m going to try again this month.

~ Read eight books

I read two books at the very beginning of the month. But not eight books.

~ Do some extra biology lessons for fun

Nope.

~ Succeed in my job interview

Yes! *confetti*

~ Discover some new music

Um, I listened to two new songs, so yes?

~ Resume blogging by the end of the month?

Nope.

At least I got a few goals done. A few is better than nothing. 🙂

Here are my goals for the next month:

Figure out if I’m doing NaNo

Work more consistently on Starless, whether that be rewriting it or finishing this draft

Start a regular exercise regime

Read at least three books

Drink more water

Figure out some new way to relieve stress

Earn three AHG badges

Resume regular blogging?

Finish learning my homework songs for voice lessons

Well, that’s it for today. I thought I’d make this post a little longer, but to be honest, I’m just too tired. I’ll see you all later. 🙂

Love,

7 thoughts on “life lately ~ september 2021

  1. September was an exciting month for me:

    1. Parish Retreat
    2. Seeing Wicked in Person
    3. Read 3 books (Wundersmith, The Day the World Came to Town, Hollowpox)

    Well, in two days, training starts at my new job—–at a coffee shop with Grand Opening next Saturday

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  2. *big bug* I hope this month will be better for you! You keep hanging in there girl, you’re stronger than you think, trust me. It take an especially strong, amazing person to put up with that amount of depression and anxiety. ❤ God loves you, and so do I! ❤
    Whoo hoo, barista partners! *fistbump* I wish you all the luck with that. Being a barista is very fun, but it can be stressful at times. Though I only work at a small-town coffeeshop, so I'm sure mine is not quite the same.
    I have yet to see Shang-Chi! I'm not sure what to think of it, from the trailer and whatnot. I'm not a fan of mystic art-type movies, even if it's "good" magic. It's often hard to discern what is acceptable, you know? I guess I try to stay away from movies where the main theme is mystic stuff, like Doctor Strange. I guess we'll see. 😉 What did you think about Shang Chi on that topic?
    I'm so excited for Hawkeye!!!! *dies*

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